Blk transgender woman stressed from living in fear

I'm a Black transgender woman trying very hard to survive during a climate when it's the most dangerous. The District Attorney's Office relocated me three time within the last ten years because I was assaulted three different times, twice I was beat up at gun point..  This is extremely humiliating having to create a Gofundme  but employment is another struggle.. I was fired in 2016 once I disclosed to HR I was transgender and I've not worked since.. Because of the many years of intersecting traumas I struggle finding work.. I was interviewed a few times with one employer asking who was my (dead name) after receiving my background check. That was extremely embarrassing , once he realized I was transgender needless to say I didn't get the job..

I've become estranged from my family because of not accepting me which I was fist called a faggot in my home. I dropped out of high school in the tenth grade because I just couldn't take the bullying any longer. I was being bullied in my home and outside of my home. Thankfully I was able to receive my G.E.D. I'm from a small conservative town in VA which was not welcoming so I moved to Washington D.C. 20 years ago. After moving here I became homeless for 5 years until thankfully receiving a housing choice voucher.. I slept in abandoned cars, subway stations and a park. I was sleeping right across the street from my cousin who wouldn't allow me to stay the night or even take a shower because she was having company.

I had a 7 hour surgery on my ear and during the procedure, the Black male anesthesiologist refused to service me because I was transgender. Black nurses also made fun of me by asking when was my last period and was I pregnant. It was extremely humiliating. In stead of the hospital taking accountability they paid me the bare minimum and asked if I could help train the medical staff instead which I didn't want to accept but had no choice..

I want to remain anonymous for safety reasons  I generally live in a safe area which is very LGBTQA+ friendly if you are white... Also unfortunately there are a group of dealers and gangs that hang on the opposite block of my apartment building. Literally a two minute walk. When leaving out to walk my dog is causes insurmountable amounts of stress having to walk in a maze like so they can't follow me to hurt or kill me. I had to file a police report because of being threatened constantly and I'm so afraid I'm going to be another Black transgender woman murdered. My apartment was shot up two weekends ago and the bullet hole is still there. The detectives are frustrated with me because I won't (cooperate). It frustrates and saddens me because law enforcement could care less about  life. I refuse to ride with them to "verify" their suspects and is compelled to drop all charges if I want to stay alive. Another battle, Black people could care less about my life. I don't have anyone to turn to or support. Black transgender women are often excluded from Black spaces and are typically harmed or killed by Black cisgender men.

I do NOT have any money except I receive $75 a month from the housing authority to pay utilities. However, I am extremely excited that I'm enrolling at a community college for spring 2021. My goal is to become  a psychotherapist. My beautiful Black non binary therapist inspired me.. There aren't enough faces who look like me in those positions.. I've endured Generalized Anxiety Disorder pretty much my entire life and was at the emergency room three different times within the last 6 months because of it.. I was prescribed 7 different antidepressants. The doctors were oblivious as to how to treat my mental illness or how to treat a transgender woman. The previous psychiatric nurse I had was just as clueless which is why I felt I was being experimented on....

My life is very hard but I try my best to push through because December of 2019, I thought my life was finally coming to an end. The stress, depression, trauma and anxiety became overwhelmingly emotionally painful.  I know it seems like a lot of money I'm asking but it will help sustain me while I seek employment and get ready for schooling.... It will definitely keep me above water being I've been down under for far too long. Thankfully my current landlord had a heart because I owed non rental bills associated with the building a lot of money. If you are in default you could risk losing your housing choice voucher..

I SINCERELY need all of the help I can... You can also cash app me at tiegan76

Thank you dearly! I will assure you, I will NOT let none of you down and  will repay you all by putting goodness back into the universe!