Help A Black Trans Woman Live
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UPDATE 10/8/20: I’m unable to receive any donations here, so sending them to my cashapp will be the best for me.
$SailorBlonde
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I've ruminated over this for months (years), and I'm only just now getting the nerve to post this.
I need help.
I know it's customary to type out a long story, explicitly explaining everything I'm going through and all the ways I need help from whoever is willing. But in my upbringing, asking for help is the last thing you do.
I was raised to fend for myself, and asking for help...even from my own parents, meant I was weak, lazy or helpLESS.
What I'm willing to share is that since 2014, after I began my transition and was fired from my job; I've been a sex worker.
It helped me see parts of the world I never expected to see in my life, acquire things I never imagined for myself and sustained me financially and almost emotionally for the past 6 years.
But since last year, I've removed myself from the sex industry and "arrangements". For my mental health and because I truly believe I have much more to offer myself and the world, than my sexuality on demand. I am more than how I look and what I can offer to rich men, who will always have an agenda when I reach out to them for help.
And beyond that, black trans women in sex work are dying. Our life expectancy is expected to drop to 27 years old.
This fund will be used to help me live.
Currently, I am unemployed. While also receiving no government relief, even during covid-19.
It's been a long time since I've worked a "regular" job and I'm willing to do it, but it's been a very long time and I've had to mentally acclimate myself to the idea. Yes, I'm a diva. But I've also experienced how difficult it can be joining the workforce as a trans person, and am fully aware of how jobs come and go in this life.
It won't be easy and I'll need to care for myself intermittently.
I will dedicate myself to moving beyond my past; physically, emotionally and creatively. I want to try new things and see what makes me happy, brings me authentic excitement and then see how I can expound on it to achieve what will hopefully be a fulfilling life.
I have MULTIPLE surgeries coming up. So far they are covered by my insurance.
August 28th
September 22nd.
And another pending surgery day after November 28th
It's not my first, which I paid in full myself.
However, even that time I was not prepared for how much I'd spend in recovery; unable to move or truly care for myself and the next surgery is right around the corner.
I truly appreciate any help I get, I know these are hard times for everyone.
But this is my last option before returning back to sex work and I'd rather give it a shot than not.
Thank You For Everything.
$SailorBlonde
__________________
I've ruminated over this for months (years), and I'm only just now getting the nerve to post this.
I need help.
I know it's customary to type out a long story, explicitly explaining everything I'm going through and all the ways I need help from whoever is willing. But in my upbringing, asking for help is the last thing you do.
I was raised to fend for myself, and asking for help...even from my own parents, meant I was weak, lazy or helpLESS.
What I'm willing to share is that since 2014, after I began my transition and was fired from my job; I've been a sex worker.
It helped me see parts of the world I never expected to see in my life, acquire things I never imagined for myself and sustained me financially and almost emotionally for the past 6 years.
But since last year, I've removed myself from the sex industry and "arrangements". For my mental health and because I truly believe I have much more to offer myself and the world, than my sexuality on demand. I am more than how I look and what I can offer to rich men, who will always have an agenda when I reach out to them for help.
And beyond that, black trans women in sex work are dying. Our life expectancy is expected to drop to 27 years old.
This fund will be used to help me live.
Currently, I am unemployed. While also receiving no government relief, even during covid-19.
It's been a long time since I've worked a "regular" job and I'm willing to do it, but it's been a very long time and I've had to mentally acclimate myself to the idea. Yes, I'm a diva. But I've also experienced how difficult it can be joining the workforce as a trans person, and am fully aware of how jobs come and go in this life.
It won't be easy and I'll need to care for myself intermittently.
I will dedicate myself to moving beyond my past; physically, emotionally and creatively. I want to try new things and see what makes me happy, brings me authentic excitement and then see how I can expound on it to achieve what will hopefully be a fulfilling life.
I have MULTIPLE surgeries coming up. So far they are covered by my insurance.
August 28th
September 22nd.
And another pending surgery day after November 28th
It's not my first, which I paid in full myself.
However, even that time I was not prepared for how much I'd spend in recovery; unable to move or truly care for myself and the next surgery is right around the corner.
I truly appreciate any help I get, I know these are hard times for everyone.
But this is my last option before returning back to sex work and I'd rather give it a shot than not.
Thank You For Everything.
Organizer
Zho B
Organizer
New York, NY
